Growing Up Silence

too young the illness to hear


the origin story

taken ill visiting my great-uncle Alan thought soon die

give me painkillers

restless condition admitted to hospital

a coma

no apparent ill effects, no reaction

floor playing toys calls, “Pita?”

not turn to face

behind me, and clapped

something wrong

not hear her


mythology

great-uncle Alan lived the next twenty seven years

struck a bargain

give him more life

the price: hearing

died, a rainbow

kindly gentle smiling crinkled


don't ever without technology

float disconnected

that happened, but not how they sounded

Silence is all-pervading

Sound a compromise

a part I strap on

to my chest in a X-harness

teacher a large radio microphone neck

strike us on the head

when Wendy bent over

all the same because strapped to our chests


bone conduction

keys clicking

closing the door downstairs as she comes home

wind knocking the door against the wall

heavy vehicle passing by

sounds in my bones


keys clicking

plug in cochlear implant

clack


reverberating front door

quivering aftershocks as ripples

the frame of the house

up to the right of the door.


wind bangs the window, the door

slams the bedroom doors beneath

a visitor has arrived


regular visits various adults

hearing aids calibrated after a hearing test

correct the whistling

count the number of holes in the sound

plastic toys and jig saw puzzles

endured

injected into my ears.

being filled up completely

sad when it had hardened and been removed.


a pressure that never stopped pressing

swimming in a constant stream


I was the only Deaf person there.

Itinerant teachers camein the small resources

School Journal boxes and sundry other

extra one on one reading

Mrs. White.


speech therapy

burnt down

a vacant lot.