see me

for my best friend, C.

she says I’m sorry
      because sometimes there are too many
                                fingernails to clean
    and too much skin to wash.

              she doesn’t know
      if truth is good
  when scrubbed like that,
              only it begins
          to resemble her sadness.

so she goes away
and finds a room
where

        she doesn’t hear the quiet tap,
  she doesn’t see the blank windows;

she hears her own voice
        and sees this space inside herself

      where
the bags are unpacked
    and the clothes are
                                            shifted
                              to the side.